I just woke up and I’m already wanting to die. First of all I put an alarm to wake up at 7am so I could enjoy my day but I accidentally overslept and now it’s 1pm meaning I only have around 9 hours left of my day that is not enough, second of all I sleep in a small walk in closet in my parents room and I went out to get my toothbrush and my dad walked in with the dog, instead of talking to me or a simple “good morning” he pretended I didn’t exist, just ignored me, and left to go to the beach with the dog, and that hurt because idk what I did to deserve this treatment, and I already suffer with derealization and he made me feel not real for a moment. And now I can’t stop crying I sound so stupid I just wanna die, no one would miss me if I was gone, my parents will probably sell my stuff for some cash, my siblings will enjoy sibling time without me, and I would be dead. I’m sorry for being the way I am, I’m sorry for ruining everything, I just want to be happy for once.