Sometimes, I feel empty I look in the mirror and its as if there's nothing in there, its just black Now I cry every night and its not even like a release/venting cry, its just a pathetic wince while I die in my sorrow alone, I talk to myself And I'm back listening to mitski and alex g again There's no point, I'm falling back in the hole again I barely made out 2 years ago I'm trying to stay off substance but I cant even rely on distractions cos it just makes me feel even shittier cos I have an upcoming exams and just the thought of it makes me sick I have no one to talk to and just reading my own words make me cringe out and throw up I'm still the pathetic piece of shit that was bullied throughout primary, I just feel tired and everything like I just want to be numb If I'm going to go through shit I might as well do it without feeling it The drugs dont help and I cant get high and I barely sleep Nothing feels real anymore and I just feel like an npc on some days and others disconnected