I'm in this weird limbo where I'm not myself but still undeniably "me." It's so odd. I feel so fake and authentic at the same time. It's driving me crazy and I don't know what to do. I want to forget about my entire identity and self so I can just live life on auto-pilot, but it's so scary to strip myself of my humanity too. I can't pick. I know just burying my sense of self will do me better right now and I can just try rediscovering myself later when I'm at a better place in life, but I still want to hold on to the things that make me "me." I hate this. I hate feeling like this is the right way to deal with everything, but life has just been so much easier. It's never been so easy yet agonizing.