I love my boyfriend so much and don't want to leave him but sometimes I really wish I wasn't in a relationship, I'm so stressed out and tired of ours, it feels like we're constantly getting into arguments and anytime I try to get him to talk things out healthily instead, when he's no longer as upset, or in the morning when I'm more awake and actually able to process the things he's saying he just gets more upset and starts name calling, at one point in our relationship I had to ask him to stop calling me useless because it was really chipping away at my mental health. I don't know how to handle anything, this is my first relationship and there's so many things he wants from me that I either try to meet the expectations of or tell him that's not some thing I want and instead it turns into another big fight, I don't know how to maintain a happy relationship with him whether it's just in general or sexually, I don't even want that most the time but he said it's necessary in one for him