My family is gone. Sisters brothers aunts uncles. People who knew me as a child, held me as a baby, who at one time gave me unconditional love are gone. Once we laughed n played. They all died. I am married to a monster and his monster family. He abused me my whole life. He required his sister's I found out after 15 yrs. His father was a pedo and so is his brother. When we met 32 yrs ago he beat me all the time. Now just on special occasions. He is a quiet monster now. I have children who love me but they are hurt. They are adults now. I do not want to be in this home anymore. I have a child who is special needs adult. I am trapped. I do not get enough to make it in my own. Contemplating just leaving anyways. I used to be homeless. I survived. I think I will be ok. There are resources out there but it's getting cold everyone here is looking for shelter. I do not want to be a burden. So I may just go away