I genuinely believe that all men are gay or at least closeted. None of them are straight no matter what they say or do or even think. I believe this because of countless of both personal and impersonal experiences I’ve had and heard. I’m beginning to just lose hope in dating any man unless if I turn into a transgender man to actually have their interest. I will admit that I am attracted to more feminine men, But regardless I like men in general romantically. It probably doesn’t help whatsoever that I am a bit tomboyish, or otherwise more on the masculine side myself. I just hate that fact that I’m starting to extremely envy gay men with my own jealousy and desperation. I feel disappointed in myself but I can’t help but feel like no matter how hard I try I have to compete with a man to actually have a man be interested in me.