I'm a grown ass girl and I fell in limerence with another girl. She's actually a bit of a bij. I know this isn't love. I know even if somehow we got together it would never last. But boy it hurt when she did what she did. It's been a few months and the feeling has faded somewhat. The thing is, I know it's just going to repeat with someone else. And I have no control over who that person is going to be. I can only pray it's not someone totally inconvenient like a colleague or someone I need to deal with regularly. Fml.