I'm always alone. From young I remember running down the corridors of my primary school pretending to chase imaginary friends. I was also bullied. Then secondary school came and it got better. I made friends with the two girls who sat infront of me. They tried to convert me to Islam. College came and I found a boyfriend. It was good. But I once again had not much friends. That was fine but I spent so much time alone when I wasn't studying. I travelled Europe alone after uni. Work started and whilst I got along with my colleagues my life was basically wake up go to work, come home late, eat infront of the TV and bed. This went on forever. On weekends sometimes I roam the malls alone. If not for my parents id celebrate my birthday alone. Id get wishes that's all. Ive reflected on this many many times. It's not that I'm shunned it's more like I'm just not anyone's first or second choice. Im used to being alone. These days I spend time at the gym. I guess I'm used to it.