Hello, I will not be public about who I am, but I am 19 years old in college currently. I have always struggled with ADD/ADHD my whole life, and no it is not a fun thing to have. It is literally hell to live with. I can never focus on anything, and if I fail college I will be kicked out of the house for life. I want to pass the semester, but my memory is terrible, it's always been terrible. Recently, I have thought about committing suicide because of this, but I don't want to just throw away all my hobbies and interests I've built up to this day. It seems like a waste, but what can I do if I fail this semester? I will be homeless and have nothing to do. I don't want to talk to my friends about this because I don't want to look like I want or need attention, this is a serious topic, and I have been confused with myself all my life. I have no motivation, I never pay attention, I don't even KNOW how the hell I'm in college right now. Anyway, hope whoever read this can relate. Thank you.