I have a problem. A LOT of my friends to self harm and I have always wanted scars but I never dared to cut myself for looks. But as the days go on and my mental health goes down, I have been thinking about it. I looked in the mirror and went searching around my house. Not for a knife, my family would get suspicious, for scissors. I brought them to the bathroom and cut my arms in the bathroom. Tonight was my first night of self harm and I'm almost sure there will be more. I don't want to ask for help. I'm scared of being tossed in the white padded rooms or going to therapy with a therapist that judges my belief. Have a good night everyone.