I have had a terrible childhood, filled with borderline poverty, absolute lack of love, bullying to the point of an attempt being made on my life, genuine starvation and not a single person I could trust. All since ripe age of 7. I have developed, researched and learned rules of inducing an ability of premonition. I have used it for years until I felt too alienated and stopped, however I have had all 70-90 dreams happen. All of them show a moment of strong emotions. I cast aside that past but the dreams kept coming. Unfortunately for me I have had a realization today. I dreamt all the nice moments of my life. Although there werent that many. Im living a sad life. but.. I.. never dreamt of being in relationship.. I have never had premonition of being in a relationship. My dreams spanned many years into the future. And I my whole life longed for having a special person in my life, of being loved. It definitely wouldve induced strong feelings. Yet it just.. seems like.. not in my future..