To everyone who cared: You know, I bet $100 that once I'm gone loads of people will stand around crying, moaning about how much they loved me, how much I should've lived. BULLSHIT. If any of you truly cared about me, you would've tried to stop this from happening, would've tried to stop me from killing myself. But did you? NO. Did you know that the only reason i'm still alive is because of my crush and the chance that she might like me back? She makes me feel like I actually have perpose in the world. Do I actually? Probably not. But an illusion is better than nothing, right? At least she makes me feel like I'm somebody!!!! Not one of you even listened to me!! al you care about is yourself! So yeah, go ahead, cry. But if I was I would immediately call bullshit because oviosly No body cared enough to listen.