How do u guys deal with abusive parents? I grew up with conservative family I'm afraid if I do ask some of them for help they'd side with the abusive parents. I know no one I have no one. I feel so alone. It's like I'm the bad one. But I know deep down I'm not. I refuse to be towed down by them. I sometimes think I should just die but I don't think they'd change even if I did. Which is why I won't give up because of them. My father would beat me up then act so surprised when I fought back. There's even a family member who comforted him instead of me. It's fucking stupid. Though it's poetic in a way, how I stood steady and strong while he hit me, his voice was shaking. his hands bled while hitting me yet my body stayed woundless. I think god existed in that very moment, just for me.