I always have thought i might have adhd you know the usual symptoms, cutting people off, fidgeting, low motivation, i just cant anymore people always think im lazy and have no motivation on purpose, they believe when i get a date wrong they think im just messy, my room reflects my mind too, everytime when im stressed the entire place gets fucked up, on top of that getting tested for adhd is expensive, im considering talking to a counselor for free without parents getting involved more specifically my father who believes im just lazy on purpose and wont belive anything i say. Please give me advice