I know I have so much work to do and I’ve had all the time in the world to do it but I just can’t get myself to do it and the deadlines come and it stresses me out but there’s no one to blame but myself but I still can’t get myself to do it and I normally can get the stuff done in time anyway but I’ve been slipping and starting to miss deadlines and it’s stressing me more and more but again it’s all my fault for being lazy and scrolling instead of being productive and every now and then I get the thought that life isn’t worth living but I’m just being dramatic but it’s hard for me to see a future not just for myself but for everyone I feel like the world is going to shit and global warming and capitalism is going to make the world so shit in my lifetime so why bother and I know there’s people who love me but I honestly can’t bring myself to care that much but I’m a pussy who would never be able to go through with it but sometimes I wish I could