Im so tired. Physically. Mentally. Im so over all of this. My life has summed since 2013 and even before. 2013 was the worst year of my life. My sister's dad left our family. We became homeless and moved in with an old family friend. Early one morning while I was waiting to go to the doctor for surgery I was molested by the man we were staying with. Then a few weeks later we moved into a house and it burned down. Since then life has sacked. I was the oldest child so I basically sacrificed my childhood and teen years to help raise my siblings. I was diagnosed with Anxiety, depression and CPTSD. My whole childhood we lived in filth. I never learned how to take care of myself properly so in school I was bullied for smelling bad. Once I graduated I worked and paid most of the bills. I struggled. I begged God for reprieve. I begged him to hear me, to speak to me but I heard nothing. I was utterly alone. Even now. Im 26. We had another fire in December of 2025. Im living in a semi converted