well, that AI job i was complaining about. i got fired. and i would be happy if i didn't know my parents would complain about it. that if i found a better job that made me happier, they would complain about the lower pay. i really envy people who have the will to live and strive to work hard to live. i just am not attached to this world anymore and i haven't been for a long time. i don't see any point in doing anything to preserve this body. it's not worth it.