i hate everything and i want everything to disappear but i don't want to die and i love my friends but i hate my family i hate the way my life is built i hate the way i was created and i really hate all the issues that i have because it really hurts it hurts and i can't tell anyone about it because the only things that happen is fake sympathy or anger from them and then it hurts even more i sometimes just can't take it anymore but people say that i have i life ahead of me. sometimes i really can't see that and i don't want to look into the future but then i worry about what will happen