i want to be touched. i want to be touched. i want to feel affection , i want to feel something warm. why have i ruined my own social life man. why is everything so terrifying and confusing? can someone jsut fuckin hold me, trace their fingers down my skin? we dont need to talk we dont even have to like each other . i just wanna know what if feels like . im so damn alone and honestly as hypocritical as it is im so so scared of socializing, to the point of panic attacks, and crying, and hiding myself away. i wish i wasnt. i want love, man.