In metamorphosis, when Gregor woke up and found out he's a cockroach, the first thing that came into his mind was his work and how his family depended on him to survive, he immediately tried to get dressed to take an important train for work. When I wake up, I just think about going to sleep again, I just lay there for hours doing nothing, one hand in my phone, the other on my dick. I don't want to wake up because that means I have to talk to my mom, that I have to look for a job, and I need to study for uni. I lack the willpower, I barely manage to cook, clean the house and have basic hygiene. My mom is constantly talking about how poor our financial situation is, and here I am, crying because I don't want to leave my bed. I thought of myself like an insect, a parasite, but if the first thing that a cockroach think is about their family and their responsibilities, then that means that I'm worse than that.