every emotion i feel piles up and piles up and all i want to do is spill it all out on somebody who will pick it all up and i know i probably have somebodies around me who would be more than happy to but i cant i just cant and i havent been able to take it anymore for so long yet i still take it. i wish somebody could rip out my heart and examine it and try to understand me even if all of the veins seem complicated i just want somebody to try