im tired of being the second option. or the third option. or never being chosen. why cant anybody pick me? all my friends always pick each other i just dont feel like im there with them. they all have girlfriends and are so social and keep secrets from me. why cant that be me? why cant i be invited to the parties. why cant i find someone who really likes me. they all are just perfect and i look like a loser next to them. they always leave me out, but then beg for me to come like they didnt not invite me on purpose. extra gcs without me in them. i used to think they were just forgetting, so i got social media to make them remember. i feel even more alone. i go to football games with them and they ditch me. i get stuck with fuckers i dont even like while they get to have fun. i try to get back to them and it just kills the mood i guess. why me? every time i talk to someone they just walk away or dont listen. im tired of trying. i would kill myself but im scared of whats next.