I hate that im 20 and im doing nothing fun with my life no parties and no friends to hangout in a cafe or park just nothing instead im stuck stufying or trying to study because i cant focus or stick to doing one thing and even with all this effort i still get mediocre grades like low Bs while my friends go out and study less and get A's its not fair why do i work hard just to be average and the fact is im doing this for nothing because i likely wont get a job becasue my stupid ass chose computer science i just cant do anything right i hate myself i try my hardest to be average and barely scrape by and i cant even have fun with friends bceause i barely have any and i cant tell the friends i do have how i feel bvs they might say im trauma dumping and leave me then ill be really left wiht nothing its so hard but i guess i have to keep goign im just so sick of it wasting away my 20's so low grades and no future...