Everyday is blurring into the same thing nowadays. I stopped messaging people I care about and that's my own fault. It does sting to see they haven't even tried to reach out or anything but a phone goes both ways as the saying goes. I cut off alot of close friends and people I know and hold them at arms length. It's only been getting harder to do anything and I am not improving it seems. Human communication is so foreign to me and I'm only ruining myself and my life. I want to do better but Everytime I do I'm reminded why it doesn't even matter if I'm there or not.