i just feel so guilty for existing. i texted my dad on the phone he pays for asking him for a food i was craving and he bought it for 80 dollars. after driving me to the dentist to get my teeth cleaned and buying me coffee. and wasting gas for all of this. he bought me a shirt i wanted yesterday and fairy lights i wanted to decorate my room— which i have to myself— today also. i just feel like such a burden for existing because i ask and i ask and i get and i get and i never give anything back. i’m just such a deadweight to everybody in my life and i have nothing to put on the table. later today ill sit in my own bathroom soaking in a nice hot bath. i have running water. what did i even do to deserve all of this? not saying im not infinitely grateful, it’s just so weird that im such a horrible and lazy person and i get all of this. for what? i feel so guilty all the time and theres a pang in my heart because i know my parents didn’t have all this and now i do. why do i deservetobe here