this is all over the place but im 20 years old and got told i have to do another year of college so im technically a freshman again. ive had such a shitty college experience other than becoming super independent which im grateful for. i had such a fun halloween last year, but i don't have any plans this year. i just really want friends who think of me. text me. call me spontaneously. invite me places. i understand it is up to me to make friends and i haven't really put my best foot forward doing this, it is just so hard to mid semester. i feel like i just wait for things to happen like i always have, but maybe ive just trained myself to be fine staying the same. its time for a change and a huge one and im doing something so different and risky this week and im so fucking excited and scared and nervous and happy all at once. this weekend will be full of FOMO but it doesn't mean halloween is never going to be like last year. in fact, lowkey i hear 2027 halloweekend calling my name idk