I have lived most of my life without friends and ive coped by being like hey im not unhappy this is fine im not even sad about it I don't even care that much about making friends I don't need to change myself to befriend others if they don't like me for who I am they can buggg off just accept me for who I am etc. but people wont accept me. im ugly and fat, and I have resting bitch face syndrome. I am an unapproachable person, and nobody will initiate conversations with me. online my vcs are dry and I sound so squeaky even though its mental because I have had zero long conversations with other people before now that im trying to change. I do not have friends online either. I have to change myself to get friends, and even if I do, my hobbies are niche games so I cannot connect to others via shared interests deeply, and I consider myself a weeb and I do have a few hundred anime watched but I havent watched an anime in years as my attention span is fried. I have nothing going for me!