uh, I don’t really know how to start this. I am 14, I am a demigirl who prefers to use She/They/Them pronouns and I want to kill myself. Jesus, that sounds concerning when you put it on paper but really, it’s just a homogeneous blob of years of accumulated stress, feeling constantly inferior (despite it being proven time and time again that I have academic prowess) and just like always feeling like I have to take the blame for everything. Also, I’m overweight and it feels like whenever I meet someone- they are immediately seeing me as my weight, and not for me. It doesn’t help that I can’t stop fucking thinking about food- it’s like a constant nagging feeling whenever I experience any emotion that just talks in my ear relentlessly until I shut it up with food. I really struggle with social interaction because I treat it much more like a game of ‘spot the difference’ but I’m only demeaning my own characteristics and it really feels like I am fundamentally different than everyone else.