I guess therapy might help? If you are like me, who cannot turn to therapy for a bunch of reasons, try to journal everything out in a notebook. If it is too personal to just leave the writings behind, even for a sec, burn it after writing it. That way, you will be able to express and acknowledge what happened to you. I think, you will be able to move on from any pleasant and unpleasant experiences and can now start live in a healed state.