Life just can't give me a break. No matter how much I try it doesn't let me change. I find a new hidden path to go down, everything works out well enough that it's suddenly not impossible anymore, and then life immedieately throws in a problem. "Your Education background isn't a problem for this school? Well now money is the problem. Wait money isn't a problem anymore? Well then let's just make your age the problem. That works out too? Well fuck it man let's just throw in the most obscure random thing that disqualifies you." that's the shit life's been doing for 4 years with the one and only dream I have. I lost everything last year, I gave up fully and I fell so deep I'm probably below hell at this point. But nevertheless life can't let me catch a single fucking break.