"Don't hold shit over people's heads" Okay, don't hold anything you've possibly done for me over my head either. It's a flimsy fucking excuse for shitty behavior. Build up a rep so you have something to hold over my head later, sure. Love the double standards those fucking morons have when it flips on them. I wish I had the balls and nervous system to say all of this to their face. Now it just sits in the repository of my brain, surfacing for no reason other than pissing me off. It hurts. I sit here thinking about how I could have handled it differently, and it's usually speaking my mind. But years of being snapped at for nothing more than feelings has ruined my response to anger. It all just sits internal. All because people who were supposed to protect me didn't. But they always have a reason I shouldn't feel a certain way. I hate them, but I desperately want them to approve of me. And actually see me instead of writing me off as the special ed kid. (site forced me to censor myself