So much is on my mind lately, it seems I can feel it all at once but when it comes to talking or typing about it, I struggle. I don't wanna go through my whole life story, I just don't have the capacity for that right now. > I can say with 100% certainty that I have failed at living. I will be 33 in 22 days and all I've accomplished in my life is marriage, and while i'm so grateful for my husband, he's my best friend, and I love him so very much; I haven't accomplished anything else in my life up to now. No friends, all of my biological family has died or left, my in laws treat both me and my husband terribly so we aren't on speaking terms right now, I have been struggling to conceive for years and everyone around me is getting pregnant, I can't work due to chronic illness that no one empathizes with. I'm so sad, I don't even think the word sad sums up these feelings. Sometimes I really feel like my only option in life is to end my life. I know, drastic but... I don't know what to do