Im so fucking stupid i cant do this i dont understand what im doing most of the times and everyone around me is a nerd so of course they do and it doesnt help that the teachers know im failing and doesnt have the courage to tell me face to face and instead sends me to someone else, like i dont even want to be in this goddamn school and someone pickpocketed my wallet and im laughing and smiling like its no big deal but it is a big deal but i just dont feel it anymore, its just whatever, everything is just whatever at this point, my moms actually chill for a chinese mom now and shes smiling and laughing and i dont have the heart to tell her that her daughter is just going to let her down because i already have it easy, i dont have a standard strict mom