And I'm terrified of being alone, of my friends leaving me, it's making me desperate, and I don't want it to affect my social life, because it if does, my friends will leave me and also the fact that I physically cannot tell anybody what I actually feel because I can't ever remember what I'm feeling. All I can describe it as is absolute terror. I want to cry, I'm so scared, I can't get help, even if I want it, and if I ask my mom for help, she'll push me away.
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