I'm tired of living bad , there was a point in my life when I saw everything I wanted being taken by someone else ,a friend ,and I missed them by the smallest most possible margin , and from then on,I don't plan for the future,I don't dream,I just live day by day and I hate it because I used to be so goal oriented,I also am ackward around that friend even though they did nothing wrong and I hate myself for it.