today i begged him for it to only be us since he's leaving for a trip and he agreed and we were playing a video game since he doesn't like anything i do and it's the one of the 2 things we can bond over, and he basically tells me he's going to play with friends now. i get upset because i had begged this day to please be about us because he doesn't work and he's again leaving and he leaves me for his friends who he spends with every second he gets. he once stayed over at his friends house until 4 am, he's never done that for me, he proceeds to tell his friends that he was bored and i cannot help but cry right now. if you are so bored just tell me if you want to play something else please tell me. i am being forced to keep quiet because his friends don't want to hear me in the background and he told me they have a point. now i'm just going to shower and cry because i hate feeling this way. i feel like a disturbance.