I don't know what course to choose or job to work in. They keep telling me to just follow my passion, and I know that statement has some truth in it, but I don't know. I genuinely don't know what I'm doing anymore. I'm finding it difficult just to get out of bed, and they're expecting me to be successful, "make it big" or something. I didn't excell in academics because i saw a bright future ahead of me. I wanted to feel special. Seen. Recognized. ANYTHING just for people to notice me. Telling them, "Hey, I'm here. I'm struggling too." I wanted to be understood, because I've kept this pain, along with these self-loathing thoughts, all to myself. I wanted to be something to someone, but It just proved that I couldn't be everything all at the same time. I'm burned out. I wanted to be thr best, but now I just want to live a happy and honest life without being judged for it. Is that too much to ask? Is that too selfish of me?