Rant #30869

i don't care about anything anymore, i don't even feel alive at this point, i look at myself in the mirror and i don't recognize what i see, i don't know who this is but it is not me. i just wish i were dead, i don't think i can keep with this up for much longer, even my mom thinks im a weirdo. maybe i do deserve all this suffering. im sorry if this doesn't make sense, i can't even write properly anymore