i dont think I'm capable of being loved. of loving someone properly. i love my parents and sibling but in the end im all alone and i question if they evrn know the real me. i know i hsvent been tbe perfect child and ik i keep messing up but I'm so lonely inside and I'm sick of it. i want one person who lives me with everything theybhave - one person that'll choose me first for evrything bc nobody ever chooses me first and I'm so sick off being desperate for love for being a starvibg snimal begging for scraps of affection. I'm sick of being hsppy eith the bsre minimum and then feeling sad nobody ever cares enough to do more than that. i want to be impractical to somebody who knows every part of me - i want yo be known and loved regardless. i wsnt my best friends to stop being imaginary cgaracters i create in my stories as a desperate attempt to prove to myself that i can be loved despite all my flaws. i dont want to be lonely anymore, I judt wsnt to be loved