I am so fucking lonely, it’s less the fact I don’t have people more the fact I feel the lack of people. Every single night I am alone I feel it gnawing away at me; I CANNOT SLEEP; I wish I could say something as simple as it’s because I miss my ex, he was my one and only, but don’t get me wrong. He cheated 4 times(fucked 4 other girls), hit me, verbally abused me whenever possible, and genuinely just kept me in a place where I was never loved. I was heavily depressed when he found me. He showed me a fake kindness a gentleness I never saw again, he convinced me he had saved me and that I should be overly grateful for him even giving me the time of day. Why I say it’s not that simple to say I miss him, it’s not strictly because I don’t miss him, it’s because he pounded the loneliness into me. He made sure I felt it, made sure to leave me in silence when I needed him. After one month he completely stopped saying I love you. The relationship lasted a year. I never got the love, im so alone