I feel like i don't know what to do with myself. i'm graduated, i've been actively looking for a job for months and i've just stopped doing my hobbies. i have a million hobbies and i just have no motivation to do any of them. i constantly have an awful feeling of guilt in the pit of my stomach. i've taken up vaping as a cope but it's not really working that well. It's just a short distraction really. I don't know. i'm just trying not to cut because summers coming up and i can't have people seeing my scars as it is, i can't imagine how hard it'll be to cover up more than i already have.