nothing works out for me in the end, i've been putting my all into everything, and yet i physically cannot keep up with all of it, my grades arent the best right now and everytime i try i have some sort of mental crisis stopping me, which then in turn makes it so my parents have a viable reason to take my car away, then that in turn makes me even more depressed and burnt out. and my parent refuse to get me on meds even knowing i have MDD because "they took meds and didnt like it" and its especially with my mom, i had to fight tooth and nail to get to go to a therapist just to try and feel better, she constantly compares me to herself constantly denying me things cause she doesnt like it. she is also extremely verbally abusive with me at times, i refuse to go downstairs most of the time knowing shes there cause i cant tell what mood shes in. i sometimes wish i wasnt even born.