I want to kms so bad. And I don't want to talk to anyone about it because I already destroyed multiple friendships with it. That's why I hate myself. And I can't tell anyone or else I will hate myself even more. What should I do? I don't know anymore... I want to talk to someone so bad but I don't want to ruin the friendship. I don't know... I hate myself... I want to cut myself... I want to kill myself... But I'm too scared... I don't know why... What should I do?