I have a recent problem and it's hard to talk about out loud, and I don't know how to fix it. I'm a happy, positive person. I have a loving family, a warm comfy and safe home with plently of privacy and supportive friends and family to talk to. I don't take any medication unless it's for vitamin defficiencies. And I have no problems in my life right now. I should be just fine. But at the beginning of 2026 I started feeling tense and restless at the end if the day. When I got in the shower it devolved into the need to bash my head on the wall and scream. I had to hold in my scream and hold my head still with my hands. Recently I couldn't sleep, feeling tense and restless again. I felt the need to hurt again. I hit my forehead with my palm, choked myself but let myself breathe, and scratched myself. I'm scared and I don't know what to do and I don't know why this started happening. And I don't know how many people have experienced something so overwhelming like this