I just dont know what to do with my life anymore. My sister hates me, shes transphobic, none of my friends text me because they probably think im weird as fuck, my grades are shit, and i really just wanna get my hands on a rope and hang myself. I feel bad that my friend have to deal with such a terrible person like me. They dont derserve to have to hear my vent again and again and have to comfort me each time. Everytime i look at my body i wish i could just stab it until i cant see it the same anymore. Its the same everyday really. I get up, shower, make videos that nobodys even gonna watch, try and call my friends even though i know they wont pick up, and sleep. The only things that make me not want to commit suicide is yumeshipping and talking to the people that actually treat me like a human. Im so sorry you had to read all of this but im sure you just skipped to the end.