I wanna die. I can't live anymore. I know I've made too many mistakes already and I've hurt my gf so much. I don't wanna live anymore. I wanna die. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I can't be happy anymore. I don't deserve it. I don't deserve anything even her. I deserve to die. I love her but I keep hurting her. Idk what to do. I just wanna die. So I could stop doing this to her. So I won't hurt her anymore. So we won't be fighting anymore. Because I don't want break up. I wanna fix what's wrong in our rs but she keeps saying she'll break up with me instead of fixing it. Break up doesn't fix anything. It doesn't.