I’ve been addicted to substances since I was 15 I’m now 18 and it feels like my life is falling apart, I have family issues my mom tried to kill me multiple times and has abandoned me as a child. I used to be smart even in active addiction I got good grades but now my grades are falling apart and I feel like I have no worth no purpose. I still remember the first time I smoked weed it felt like a warm hug from Mother Nature , a hug I never got before. But not the weed bites and burns and just makes things hurt more. Yet I can’t quit