I wish it was easy to find a partner like how people describe. Idk about other countries- but in mine drinking is SUCH a big part culturally, so my options are pubs, bars, clubs and alcoholic parties. There are non alcoholic events but they're way less popular. I do okay or even great in those enviroments but nothing ever past friendships. I don't know how to do anything beyond that. By the sounds of it from friends and online, it just sort of happens. Anyway I can't stand the taste of alcohol and i can't stand the sensory aspect of drinking spaces (the smell, the lighting, the noise, people brushing up against you). It makes me feel simultanously like a child and a elderly person. Yeah i'm probably autistic and yes i try to seek out people like me. Dating apps never work. So like...?? God it's so weird, since i was a young child i've always felt that i'd end up with no partner- i cried about it lots and now i really am watching it happen. Sorry maybe over dramatic. Feels scary