I suppose its everything. I think Im a people pleaser, albeit I seem to never please them. And I just want it to stop. I am in a high stress, demanding role as a corporate lawyer. I hate the stress and long hours. I want to quit dedp down but I fear disappointing my team and lising all I worked for but I would rather work for much less and have less stress. I get waljed over by my boss. I dont think my colleagues really care either way. My parents are the most negative, entitled and emotionally draining individuals. I leave work to pick them up from the airport, constant complaints and no thanks. They hate everything. They hate me. They hate the world and somehow I need to listen to it. My boyfriend gives me no committment after 5 years. I live in my own home. No emgagement. Nohome. He knows I want it. My friends are all surface level. They have their own lives and dont really ask about mine. And yet I stsy in all these relationships. Unloved, unfulfilled, lonely.