It feels like im somehow supposed to know exactly what to do, but i don't, and it's frustrating and upsetting. Im homeschooled and the only people I ever have actual conversations with are my family. And it's been this way for a few years now, and I think it's really messed my social skills up completely. And I recently finally opened up about that a little bit to my mother, and she's trying to help, and she says she understands i have to put myself out there on my own as well, if i want to make friends again, which i also understand. But I just really don't fit in with anyone else my age that we see consistently enough for me to even be friends with. And i just don't know how to be genuine for more than a sentence with any of them, so I can't get myself to talk to anyone about the more specific issues im dealing with. And it feels like if I did get myself to be genuine, there's no chance they'd like the me that isn't silent most of the time from anxiety.